Dear blog. You disappear.

I miss you so much my bloggy. I wanna share all the things here. But I thinks isn’t good. This place too public. Let me share something.

I’m being so annoying lately. My feels being so cruel sometimes. Have you ever felt like this? and I don’t have anybody to help. I feel so alone. I’m gonna keep this feel, deep but calm.

Capek sm rutinitas sekolah yg sekarang, next week gue mau uts. Wish me luck :) masukin masa-masa uts disini…gue hrs hard work boat ngejalaninnya. Ngabisin waktu buat belajar dari buku, internet, dll. Gue hrs perjuangin ini gue rasa. Jauh sama masa smp gue, jauh. Gue ngerasa org yg madesu bgt. Kebanyakan gak mood drpd moodnya. Seering gue berharap ada “something” yg bikin gue hrs gak sekolah haha. Don’t let it fool you. Gak ada penyemangat sekolah lg. bosen. Bosen sm guru, pelajaran, tugas, dll. Butuh cari inspirasi buat netralisir hal-hal negative yang ada. Sipp.

Anyway…should I tell you about this? I think not. Something happened between us. There’s like a big hole between us. I think I’m gonna die if I see that hole. Let me share about it, just a little. I wanna run away just as far as I can. As soon as possible. Yes, stop being selfish someone, I’ve done with you. Don’t try so hard to say goodbye. skip.

Balik lg ke sekolah. Baru aja kehilangan tmn lagi. Kali ini bukan temen baru, temen lama, bisa dibilang dulu sahabat. Woow, good. I don’t wanna trust someone 100% I swear. Gue mau tau gimana kelangsungan si “kacang lupa kulit” itu tanpa tmn lama. gue tau lo punya segalanya, glamour dll. Gue tau lo lebih dr gue. gue gak bermaksud nyindir. Gue cm mau ketemu and share some story. You don’t have unlimited time for me? I understand. Are you avoiding me? yes you do. Gila2222, bisa bgt lupain kita-kita ini…hebat.

Ngmg-ngmg soal sekolah lg, akhir-akhir ini lg gabagus deh. butuh tmn lain, but who? Temen-temen yg ini mulai ada perbedaannya, gatau deh tp apa. Its doesn’t matter friends. Gue cm mau lebih maju drpd sebelumnya, gue gamau main-main. Okee ngmg-ngmg soal jurusan. Gue udh mantep di IPA, walaupun fisika gue pas-pasan hehe. tp nyokap bokap jg nyaranin gt, gue jg mantep di ipa. Wohoooo fight222

Oke agak lega bye. lanjut belajar dulu.