Hey there, yeah you with the tears in your eyes.

I know exactly how it feels to walk with your head down, alone. To cry in the shower. While you turn on your favorite sad song on repeat. To stay up til late and wait for everybody to be asleep so you can fall apart, curl up on your bed and start to suffer and cry silently. I know how it feels to be home alone, and wishing that nobody will ever come home so you can enjoy your loneliness. To over-sleep and wishing that you’ll never wake up so you don’t have to feel empty.

To pig out in your favorite restaurant, alone, to walk into a room and remember that you’re completely alone. To hardly remember what kind of happy being you were back then. And to make it less painful, i know how it feels to enter an empty room and cry your heart out and wish that soon it’ll heal your broken soul. How to blend in with your happy friends and start acting like you’re all okay. I know how it feels baby. Wishing that you could just disappear. Wishing that you never really existed. I know how it feels to bend on your knees and start to cry in your prayer. Wishing that God would take the pain right away after you say the word “Amin”.

I know how it feels, wishing that you could be invisible to the people around you. Taken for granted, unloved, unwanted, and so delicate and weak.

And due to our natural impulse, you start to be angry. Why is everybody so cruel to each other? So mean. Why is everybody so selfish? Why does everybody forget to love you? Why does nobody want your presence? Why is everybody so ugly? Why is this world so hopeless? Why is happiness so rare? Why does it never come to you? Why does love hurt so bad? Why is life so unfair? Too many why-s and telling y’all, there’ll be no answer. This is our nature. To hurt each other. And make each other feel awful.